28: we're all bastards

from this point on i'm calling this my own personal meme - if i want to talk to myself through my posts, i'll talk to jon snow instead. this is fun try it!. i think i've been doing it for quite some time now. foooor exampowl:

you know nothing, jon snow.

ye direct quote from ASOIF but still a good reminder whenever i encounter dead ends or disappointments.

eat your heart out, jon snow.

go home, jon snow. you don't belong here.

know the more important things, jon snow.

know what you want, jon snow.

think before you act, jon snow.

you're eating too much rice again, jon snow.

you're not immortal, jon snow.

put your mind to it, jon snow. the director will be coming soon and you havent polished your edit yet.

clean your room, jon snow.

you should be cleaning your room instead of writing facebook posts, jon snow.

you can't cross that wall jon snow.

oh and the wall! the wall! such a great metaphor for a lot of things. hahahaha.

face the wall, jon snow.

feel the wall, jon snow. - whenever i feel resistance in some people.

give them the wall, jon snow - whenever you face people you dont like. haha.

start climbing, jon snow.

protect the wall, jon snow.

you're now the wall, jon snow.

you need to be the wall, jon snow.

burn down the wall, jon snow.

heyyyy i'm not geeking all over ASOIF. i'm just mmm passionate whenever i feel like it.

ok back to cleaning the room.

dust creatures are real i swear.

27: about hesitations and okay. love.

I think when you go for that love/relationship thing, you just need to be aware of the risks you are going to take. admit that once you start, you will never walk away from this unscathed. and if you really want it, go give it all you've got.

all the other things (rebound issues, etc) really don't matter in the long run. Maybe as long as you're both in it together, it will work. Yes you have to believe me. :)

26: i am frodo.

I admit it, come to me fuming mad against another person and i will always frustrate you with that benefit of the doubt phrase. maybe i give my trust so easily but this is far from being merely passive about issues going on around now.

I've had my own share of fights. Frak I've been openly shamed in meetings for being vocal about my stand on issues in the workplace before, but I didn't give a damn. so I think I can give a good fight when I need to. But now I feel strangely distant.

Ye cheesy as it may sound but I still believe in humanity. Maybe when I witness first hand the wrong things or the wrong person, only then will I decide for myself. But otherwise, I always stay in that corner of the room and hold my judgment.

(im not making any sense so let me try to use examples)

So. perhaps I am more of a trusting Frodo Baggins than a suspecting Samwise Gamgee.

But I am fully aware of the risk. I know that Frodo trusted Gollum and in the end lost a finger for it. Hey I'm even aware of what happened to ever-trusting ever honorable Ned Stark. But still.

Maybe its my own attempt to find sense in this crazy world. Maybe a part of me believes that such trust given to a person can somehow make a person trustworthy. Maybe.

I'm counting my fingers now. If and when I survive this ordeal, let me show you my fingers once more and count with me.

Yes yes, you can come with us, Gollum.