40: poem for the dreaming.

I'll float away now
Swim in my thoughts
brew my dreams
in lucid seas
reign for years 
and
see you.

hold your hand
brush your hair
hit your arm 
playfully
laugh with you

and slowly
find my way back
to my bed
tomorrow morning.

38: i hope i wont chicken out.

I've just finished wrapping Christmas gifts for the officemates. I have to admit I literally did not buy anything new for them. most of the gifts I'm giving away are part of my personal things - favorite dvds, books, etc. I do hope they appreciate them, or or or they pass them on to anyone ready to appreciate such stuff. I'm excited really, while wrapping them up. But right now while staring at the bundle of gifts, I'm a bit anxious about the many possible reactions I might see on my officemates as they open their gifts.

I do hope I get to give the gifts away. No really, I do hope.

Because I remember the last time I prepared mixed DVDs for my officemates, I ended up not giving them away. Only a handful I think did get them. The rest flew straight towards the trash can and I ended up going home a bit depressed because of the fact that burning mixed DVDs is all I can really afford as gifts. yeah boooohoo.

reduce reuse recycle.

37: awkward moment

People are dying in several areas in the country due to massive flooding and I feel bad being helpless about it. I would really like to share my usual tweets and thoughts but anything happening around me seems trivial right now. I think I'll refrain from posting the usual stuff up until Christmas time and just pray instead for those affected by Sendong whenever I get the urge to post about other things.

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36: about being lazy

So this is a confession: I've been lazy this 2011.

I've had my share of plans, resolutions and commitments when 2011 started but I'm afraid like a lot of impulse bought books I have they all went straight into those plastic boxes I hid somewhere in my room.  I've been too comfortable, too happy, too contented. I watched a lot of shows I liked, read the most entertaining books, slept a lot (but not in the right proportions) waited on people a lot, sang a lot talked a lot.  But I'm saying this now my friend, all those things are so 2011. 


This coming year things are going to change. I've been dreaming too long waiting too long. I've been too careful.

This year I will rediscover my passions. I will make my work my day job. I've been thinking about this for a time now and maybe this is what's  bugging me all along: I'm making a terrible excuse of myself being some sort of breadwinner that's why I didn't take the risks - all those opportunities from way back. Well this time around I will start something new.
When I think of it, all the things i've set my eyes upon years ago - I really haven't tried anything to reach them.  Let's see this year.

I will find my music. When I find it, I will dance with it.

35: Christmas doodles

We had a great night at M's house preparing gifts for her co-workers and I've been given the chance to add a little personal touch to the cards attached on the wrappers. She gave me a brief description of each person and here's what we've done so far:

 

Hmm I do hope they'll like it.

34: about myself.

Earlier this evening I was telling my friends that I've recently concluded I'm not sociable. Sure I easily give away smiles and greetings even to complete strangers but most of the time I keep to myself or only to one or two people at a time. I enjoy big groups but at the end of the day it's those moments spent with a few people that linger.

Looking back at our conversation I now realize that I do not need to be apologetic about the way I am. This is me: I'm built this way. I laugh easily,  I get teary eyed easily. I find joy in mundane things.  I easily back off people whenever I feel the slightest amount of discomfort.   But most of the time I pursue intimate conversations and company and for that people find it uncomfortable to go alone with me. Thank God there are still those that listen, laugh and are willing to be dragged to places I want to go.

I ride with the wind, come with me. 

33: about shouting silently.

Sometimes it's sad really, when you feel differently about certain things and people around you are already of one mind about it. It's like being in one big open field yet you still need air. Like shouting but never hearing your voice. Something like that. But hey, this is just me talking. Maybe this is my way of telling that yes, I'm longing to talk to someone who has a different opinion too.

Have you ever been in this situation or something remotely similar to this?

This is surely going to put me in earphone mode/solo mode in the next few days.

32: fondness for broken things and friendship on plates.

Heeeeey.

Eearlier we've chanced upon a small Japanese surplus shop around Parañaque. Now I must say that scouring such shop is one of my smaaall passions in life so even if M and I were supposed to go somewhere right away this morning, we took our time and had our hands dirty looking through boxes and boxes of goodies. here's what we got:

Collectors' plates! The artwork is classic manga/anime look, but I never really recognized the characters. Looking under the plate however helped decide that these two will go home with me:

 I loved the series back then, and although these are from another animation company entirely, this is still worth keeping for me.P20 each. mine!

Anybody recognize this??? Haha Geeky shivers when I found this under piles and piles of pokemon figures. Why is he mixed with those things?  This here, if you havent seen the movie yet, is just a harmless piece of junk. but upon waking up, haha...

for  P10 I will serve you, master.

Aanyway speaking of junk, here's another one i got for P20: one solid piece of vintage robot! I think he's a sparring robot. haha.

Ok fine he's missing an arm, but that makes him more endearing; now you can pose him like this and whenever you arrive home depressed just one look at him and wooza you're already a lucky guy by far:

don't start with the whining, punk.

And last but definitely not the least: Cat bus!

 

I think the still is from that part when they were watching their mom from afar.

We got it already framed and in nice condition. I saw similar items on Ebay and the cheapest was around P1.2k unassembled, unframed. plus delivery charges from outside the country. We got it for P200 yay! Now which wall. I was thinking of hanging it in the toilet. haha. three pairs of eyes watching you. freaky. of course I'm joking.

So all those items for P270. not bad for me :)

Of course I felt bad leaving the kendo sticks behind. They were heavily priced at P1k each. But hey the bamboo kendo still sounded good when I struck M with it. She was too shocked to strike back harharhar.