43: about the sad perspective and giants.

Yesterday I had a conversation with the mother about the father.

I learned that my father has been making these little comments about us never ever going to make it better in life.
The exact words were "Hindi na tayo makakaahon."  Those were big words pertaining to our overall status as a family.  The funny thing here is honestly I consider us way better off than most families, from where we are -  we have cable tv, internet, an air conditioned room, a car, our own house - all these things that place us somewhere in the middle class group. We do not have outstanding debts, all of us have insurance, we get to buy medicines, vitamins, books, cds; we all have our mobile phones.

About the father. We've always argued that he is a glass-half-empty person: Show him or tell him something and he'll notice the negative side of it right away.  Show him a photo of a nice nipa hut and he'll tell you snakes can come inside it anytime. Show him a photo of a bike you're planning to buy and he'll tell you a lot of people die from bicycles. A balloon can cause fires. puppies = rabies.

But to have that perspective about where we are in life right now, I think that crushes a part of me a bit. That sort of makes my effort to establish our family financially  all these years not enough. I know, I might be pushing these thoughts a bit too much but I can't help it. Suddenly everything was weighed and I feel that I've fallen short of his expectations.

excuse me while I go to outer space a bit. -> aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah -> falls back to earth. ok i'm fine now. I had to let that out.

Sigh. Life is short. Make it count.


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Anyone saw the night giant last night? Don't mind the passing skysplitter; that's a night sky patrol. I don't know where he bought his serenitea at that hour.

The giant was awesome! It was sad though.